Soliloquy

Encased and alone, I walk
Troubled and tortured and what not
Watching the shadows of yesterday crawl
Remembering all the times we’ve fought

Waiting for the winds of change to pass you by
Hoping for time to change your mind
I miss your effulgence in all its pieces
As you leave this faraway shudder behind

I could give a thousand reasons as to
The heaven sends greetings today
Urge me to escape into the skies
Say, won’t you stay?

We don’t have to speak in silent screams
Heaven’s hypnotic pull has become my own
As I traverse this brittle world barefoot
It’s love for me, maybe outgrown

A language spoken in slithers and shivers
And one understood in trembles of fear
Tangled breaths in the face of your skin
Rise to hold me in its embrace here

I traverse on my own, a passive onlooker
My soul entwined with yours in such a way
Desire no longer remains just a word
But tell me, why don’t you just stay?

So I’m tired of all this wailing and crying
He can have all of you, but give my soul back instead
While you go away for one last time
Just pull the trigger and make sure I’m dead

Death is stronger, more powerful and deeper
How do I explain this vulnerability I feel?
It gnaws at my mind and my sleeping soul
It kills everything my heart tried to conceal

Maybe I’ll grow out of you, but don’t just leave
Kiss me and I’ll be yours in a way
To never be someone else’s again
And perhaps I want you to stay.