Soliloquy

Where is the joy that was seen yesterday?
Where is the sunlight peeking through?
Why is it that I am still left with hell to pay,
When to my God I’ve just bidden adieu.

From now on what will life look like?
Will the sun still rise tomorrow?
It hides away from me lest I strike,
Seeking an end to this continual sorrow.

How do I exist in a world where He does not,
How do I live my life from here on?
I won’t let this stain become a blot
Though this battle appears long-drawn.

Is this the present that Nature is gifting me?
Or am I being made a fool by Time again?
At Twenty-two, is this the man I really want to be?
If only He could see how I’ve fought the pain.