How hard do you think it is for me
when I no longer see you beside me
after I have woken up from yet another
night of having slept dreamlessly
when you comfort me, tell me
that everything is alright
How does it really feel
when you know
that you’re always on my mind?
How hard do you think it is for me
when I don’t see your silhouette
perched beside my shadow or your
shape lurking underneath the verandah
when you lure me, tease me
that the world is against us
How difficult is it for me
when I know
that nobody can win this tug of war?
All I had ever wanted was the brown of your eyes
and the sweet melody of your laughter
while you had stood amazed by the door,
giggling and never tiring of being astonished
at how wonderful life really was.
All you had ever wanted was the comfort of my hands
a gentle wrap around your arms, encouraging you
to go deeper inside my heart and look for crevices
Of course, it wasn’t your fault when I threw it
away, deciding that it was too rancid to keep.
Soliloquy 
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