Soliloquy

When the day is over,
And the sun sets
I come out of hiding

It is dark around,
Darker than the black I wear
But dark is what I seek

I have forgotten joy
Learnt to embrace hatred
If I can’t, you can’t too

Sometimes I cry
Overburdened by my failings
As son, friend and lover

I see the walls closing in
And the devil calls me
I scream- to no avail

Fear envelopes me
And cuts me into half
Till my spirit is broken

Sometimes I cry
Losing sleep over perfection
My flaws haunting me

Sometimes I cry
Terrified of the feasibility
Of my private morality